I have had this obsession/fascination with most (all) things mechanical and or electronic for as long as I’ve been compulsively writing. I recall fusing a handheld electronic game with a portable FM stereo player because it just made sense to do so. I didn’t understand how no one had thought about that by then. Due to just working with mainly duct tape (with super glue here and there) and lack of the proper tools to put all that together it didn’t last long, but it worked long enough for me to pat myself on the back. This was in the early 2000s.
However, just like my writing, I never thought much of it because I figured that it was just something we all learnt to do as we grew up. I went from there to fixing one or two Hi-Fis that I could and all other house electronics that were either malfunctioning so badly that people didn’t mind letting me open them up or weren’t working at all. Nervousness typically kicked in when you had fixed the problem but wanted to make sure that you didn’t break anything as you were putting everything back together, said nervousness had been groomed by past experiences. From there, I went on to make a couple of my own speaker set ups with various enclosures.
Still, as the years went by, this seemed to fizzle out with the increasing complexities of the things I wanted to make & or fix. See the basic tools I had and my knowledge at the time only allowed me to go so far. So, naturally, to avoid the total demise of this mechanical/electronic passion, I moved my focus to bigger and bigger mechanical items, things like; printers, scanners, computers eventually ending up at cars (well, almost all things automotive). The older I got and the more information I got access to, the bigger my world expanded in that regard.
Once again, not taking it seriously I let all that slide and in the high school years I found myself pursuing other passions and putting those early obsessions on hold. I went on to pursue art and design with a desire to do woodwork, sadly that was being phased out as I was about to start grade 10. However, I was fortunate enough to get the opportunity to work with some of the woodwork machinery before it got phased out as a subject choice.
All of these thoughts (and more) came flooding back as I thought about committing to studying further next year. The main struggle so far has been deciding which course I want to explore first among the various interests I’m still so keen on exploring. With the two main contenders being Mechanical Engineering and Creative Writing (they do seem to be worlds apart). It’s really a tough one for me though, because one is something I can’t help but do organically (I can’t stop writing, doesn’t really matter what I’m writing). The other one is something I’m still so fascinated by which will allow me to not only create more but also partake in almost all the fascinations and obsessions I have.
I want to do mechanical engineering because it’s a skill, it’s practical, and I feel as though it will allow me to do so much more and bring some many of my ideas to life. On the other hand, writing is the passion I’ve been yearning for while ignoring that I already had it. It’s that one thing that is so innate that I can’t recall a time it didn’t just come as naturally to me as it does now. I know I will do both over time, I just need to decide which hill I’m taking first.